Randomness at it's best.

I’ve been blind.

My mind has been clouded with all the things that I didn’t have. Those negative thoughts, negative feelings, the downside of everything-

When I had everything I needed right infront of me:
Mom, my job, new friends, a new life and God.

People may come and go and things may change, but not the things and the people that you love the most especially if you know how to nurture and treasure them.

Whining about all the things I never had just brings me down. Whining about the things I still don’t have does the same. So it doesn’t make sense as to why I have to occupy my mind with these unhelpful thoughts.

I have the choice to change my perspective in life.

For the past few days, I’ve been a hypocrite saying that I trust in God when I haven’t been doing exactly that. I allowed myself to be engulfed with negativity that I couldn’t see what’s really important. Now, things are about to change. I want them to change. I won’t let anything interfere with what I need to do; with what I’m suppose to do.

I’m sorry God for being so impatient and for not trusting Your plans for me. Mom, as I thought, I can never leave you be. I love you. And as much as possible, I will do my best to take care of you even tho dad isn’t around anymore and bro’ll go to the US. And Jei, please stop derailing yourself from the path God has already laid down for you. Believe in Him. Trust in Him.